“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise—in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?” Psalm 56:3-4
I was reading some scripture yesterday by the beloved David, thinking of my own beloved while he is away. King David loved the Lord so much and even though he made some big mistakes that cost him dearly, he praised Him with an unbelievable amount of admiration and love.
In Psalm 56 David is upset because of how people are treating him. He has moments of fear but immediately recognizes the faith and trust he has in God and begins to praise. I am always amazed at how fully he pours out his love for God as though God is his spouse. I know that sounds weird but today’s society places the love of one’s spouse or children above their love for God. Society has it all backwards, our love for God is supposed to be greater than our love for a spouse or our kids; He should receive the majority of our attention and affection.
I am not altogether sure why I am amazed by David’s declarations maybe it is not so much amazement but like Scarlett O’Hara would say, “Pea-green with envy.” I love the Lord and work daily to make Him my first and foremost but unlike David it doesn’t just naturally pour out of me so I am a bit envious at how he displays his love for God. I desire the same and have been taking steps in my walk to draw even closer towards Him.
In the past, when my lovebug has been away for work I have had major insomnia partially because it is hard to sleep without him (putting the love for my husband first) and partially because of fear (not praising God and relying on Him). However, last night after reading Psalm 56 I spent a great deal of time talking to God asking for His protection and putting my trust in His word. I am happy to report I fell asleep at midnight, way earlier than normal, and was nightmare free.
Goodbye fear, hello trust!