“Don’t let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity” I Timothy 4:12.
I haven’t been very faithful with writing in my blog. I felt very blah about writing. I go through several rough patches throughout the year when it comes to writing. I have chalked it up to writer’s block. I have chalked it up to being distracted with other things in life. Yes, those are real things but looking at it from a different vantage point I think the real issue is insecurity.
I have had thirty-eight years of life experience, more experience than most people do at my age because of the bad choices I have made. However, that doesn’t necessarily mean that I have anything worth wile to say or that anyone really wants to listen to me. (Lurking in the shadows is the father of lies.)
The devil likes to use our insecurities against us anyway he can. So of course when it comes to my writing he has picked it apart as not being important enough. I have let him get to me time and time again through doubt all because I think I may be too young for people to want to hear what I have to say.
A few days ago in my women’s ministry group my pastor told us ladies that we should not be comparing ourselves to others, that God had designed each of us for different purposes, and what are we doing with that.
I have been wasting my time and ability on idle things because I was worried that what I had to say was not good enough. I came home from our women’s ministry and began to pray about what He needed me to know and what He wanted me to do with that knowledge. The Lord reminded me that it is not my job to stop doing what He tells me to do and it is not my job to worry about what other people think. He said it is my job to be obedient to His direction and that what is said on my blog comes from Him. That the posts I have written are not coming from me personally but coming through me by way of prayer – asking the Lord to give me the words and help me represent Him well. Regardless of what others think, if I have prayed for His wisdom and spoke from His words, the truth He wants me to share, then it does not matter how far the blog reaches.
God is greater and accomplishes greater things than anything we can ever imagine for ourselves. If He has asked us to do something in His name then He will make our path known. I am so blessed to have such a direct line of communication with my Best Friend, Father, Provider, Keeper, Comforter, Healer, Life-giver, and Spirit-filler that I could not ask for anything better than being able to do His will, especially since He has been kind enough to make the path known.
I might be young and even younger at heart but I made Him a promise to be an example in what I say, how I live, love, my faith, and purity which means that the devil doesn’t win. I will write, I will speak, I will preach, I will teach, I will disciple, and I will lead with HIS love.
He has words for me to say even if only one person listens; that was the one He needed those words to be spoken to. Thank you reader, whoever you are, for allowing me to speak His truth to your heart.